6.10.2011

There's No What If, There's Only What Is

When I'm about to do something new and scary, I've always always always thought "okay but what if...". Then I would literally go through every terrible scenario I could ever imagine with that movement. But yesterday and the other day with John Conway, I was looking at two new, fairly large (in my experience) precisions... and I didn't allow myself to think about the jump in future tense. It hasn't happened yet, and I don't know what will happen until it happens. And as far as I know, I can't predict the future (gasp).

So I can stand up there and ask "but what if I miss with one foot and break my shin on the edge of that wall?" I can ask myself those types of questions all day. Or... I can focus on what IS. I can focus on jumping up, jumping out, throwing my arms to help me get the distance, putting my feet out in front of me, spotting the landing, absorbing on impact, and finally gaining my balance.

But I will focus on those things as they become the present. My body will figure out "what is" WHILE it is happening. I'm at a point in my training where I can pretty accurately estimate whether or not I can make it to the landing spot for a precision. It's been the fear of the way the landing goes that has held me back. Though it'll still take some work, I'm very much looking forward to using this method of thinking for future jumps (yep, I just predicted the future).